I think of this constantly, over and over about where I am, what, who am I ?
I have let the past go, I know there is no improving that.
We are moving forward some, but I find I am stuck. I feel that I can't move forward or plan.
We are moving forward some, but I find I am stuck. I feel that I can't move forward or plan.
Is there a decision to be made by me? For whom I ask? Is it for me or my children?
Is it right, when the rules say no, isn't that to be the guiding principal? I am bound by my faith.
And yet it means I am stuck in the present, hanging and waiting.
But my kids are happy; they do not have a choice to make.
Is my focus to be only on the children? Is there a me?
Tracy's post struck a chord in me, there is a difference between doing the right thing and the good thing.
If I put my life on hold, it would seem the good thing.
If I make a decision for me, it would not be the right thing. So it seems there is no right thing to do but continue to be stuck in the present until that decision is out of my hands.
But then I think, it is stuck only in one aspect, I can move on in other ways that affect my growth without upsetting the children.
But does my unhappiness affect my kids. I should not let it, should I?
That is where I am now.