"Evil can be undone, but it cannot develop into good. Time does not heal it." C S LewisIn Lewis interpretation, you have to go back to the beginning and do it all over again to see the error of your ways.
One of the things to do to be at peace is to forgive.
Could my ex have been saved, converted, changed ?
I kept thinking about that and then recently I heard a homily about how we should pray. In summary, the implication was leave it in God's hands, ask for help for a person or with a situation when you pray BUT don't direct God.
And so I thought of my situation, I didn't direct God, I asked for help to solve the unrest and distress.
And the answer as it had unfolded gives me my answer to my question.
If it could be done, it would have come to pass and so the answer I believe is no.
God intervenes when we need him and when it's beyond our control but not when we can do it our self, be it easy or hard. We need to know when to give up and when to persevere.
-Reviewing
My children are older, not necessarily wiser. Now I worry if one of my sons is turning into a replica of is father. ..a question of nature of nurture. Awareness is not enough.
Praying and trusting in God is all have. I don't intend to live that way again.
May God have mercy.
