It's been a half a year since I thought change when will it Happen ?
Life seems better now, there is more noise and movement.
The childen are learning to be loud. Sometimes too much.
Some things need to be learned all over, some fears still to overcome, that's hard.
The ill wind does not blow as often.
Still I am grateful, there seems to be more calm less strain.
When once there was mostly gloom, the sun shines more.
But of course we can't have everything perfect.
There are still Inner struggles,
but of a different nature, and we will persevere.
Be Happy, Be Strong, Live Life. I write for the love of it; helps me think clearer and somehow it also gives me strength. it's been healing, it's been a journey; it's about me, being a mom, persons who mean much to me, memories, discoveries, where life has taken me and where I hope it will head. I am moving forward, I'm happier today (1 May 2012)
Mar 16, 2010
Mar 12, 2010
A Day in the Life ... 'Listening' to my Kids is not easy ....
'Listening' to other people is easier done than listening to my kids.
When you listen, you don't just do it with the ears but you hear with an open mind and heart. And our response should be one that is the result of digesting and absorbing that message. It should not be a reaction.
A lesson for me this week ......
I experienced a one-way shouting match with my teenager, while I remained calm I realised I was reacting to her and not responding (and this is something I don't do when I interact with others). She was obviously reacting to my response.
At the end of it, though she did recover herself soon enough to realise she was in the wrong and that made me happy. While the 'shouting and the walking away' had reminded me of my husband's character, the recovery was all her own.
Doing this with outsiders is easier than with the kids, I realise. I already have built in biases, expectations, presumptions and familiarity with the kids that does not lend itself to the patience needed. So by reflex my 'listening' to them becomes ineffective because my mind is already interpreting before the message is completed. As a result, my response will not be the objective one it should be.
Ironically, the difference is because I care more.
I have to work at this.
When you listen, you don't just do it with the ears but you hear with an open mind and heart. And our response should be one that is the result of digesting and absorbing that message. It should not be a reaction.
A lesson for me this week ......
I experienced a one-way shouting match with my teenager, while I remained calm I realised I was reacting to her and not responding (and this is something I don't do when I interact with others). She was obviously reacting to my response.
At the end of it, though she did recover herself soon enough to realise she was in the wrong and that made me happy. While the 'shouting and the walking away' had reminded me of my husband's character, the recovery was all her own.
Doing this with outsiders is easier than with the kids, I realise. I already have built in biases, expectations, presumptions and familiarity with the kids that does not lend itself to the patience needed. So by reflex my 'listening' to them becomes ineffective because my mind is already interpreting before the message is completed. As a result, my response will not be the objective one it should be.
Ironically, the difference is because I care more.
I have to work at this.
Mar 9, 2010
Stand Tall
A symbol for my journey
I perceived, the sunflower
that would be the Me.
Reaching out toward the light,
standing tall, unafraid in plain sight.
But being still, I cannot always be
and so upon a butterfly did I settle
for my tracks and ramble.
I travel where I yearn to go,
leaving trails across pages
about yesterday and of tomorrow,
filling today with words and images.
Remember. Stand tall and bright
like the charming Sunflower,
be spirited like God's butterfly,
to and fro alight and ponder.
(HA - 2010)
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