The last quarter always sees more family occasions. I realize recently that my attitude to attending events that bring me in closer contact
with relatives has changed and for the better – I'm less apprehensive and less calculating in my
thoughts of what might be asked and how I might respond where my ex is concerned.
They must have noticed his absence from social functions for many years now. Not strange then, they have stopped asking me about it or him.
They must have noticed his absence from social functions for many years now. Not strange then, they have stopped asking me about it or him.
I feel more open in my thoughts, there is less or hardly
that sense of being imperfect or defensiveness that I used to ‘arm ‘ myself with
when going to these family affairs.
I suppose it would be called coming to terms with what has
always been and what it will be and what it actually is today.
I want to be the person in charge of me again.
Who am I or was I trying to satisfy, why pretend?
Society is not perfect and as I sat in the living room of my brother's in-laws and the families a couple of weeks ago, I thought, everyone has issues, I don't judge them, why should they judge me.
I want to be the person in charge of me again.
Who am I or was I trying to satisfy, why pretend?
Society is not perfect and as I sat in the living room of my brother's in-laws and the families a couple of weeks ago, I thought, everyone has issues, I don't judge them, why should they judge me.
Why do we love ourselves less and not see our weakness as our humanness that is forgivable by God and yet not by ourselves? Do we set higher standards for being who we should be?