Dec 21, 2012

Divorce and my Faith

Saying it out loud is about facing it.

I've been trying to get my parish priest to come bless my new home and of course he is busy but I am hoping he can soon.

Ever since the divorce was final, every sermon and every 'opinion' about those divorced or about divorce pricks my conscience. I've been thinking I do need to speak to a priest about it but I procrastinate.

Is it guilt or fear? My only thought is that man judges differently from God. While I feel confident that God understands my circumstance I'm not so confident how a priest would.  Because I did not initiate it even though I had more cause to,  I have always believed this is was God's solution to my many pleas.

Everything I have heard is about - not going there. There's nothing about it when you are there and every time the subject comes up I step into this void - no white or black or grey. I don't know how to describe it, I don't know what I should think there's just no ground under it. There are articles, some web pages that attempt to address and interpret what the church law implies, but nothing is really clear to me I suppose.

 I'm handling it with the family and friends, no issues there.

For me, it's never been a dead end, it always was the beginning for healing and learning to be again. 

3 comments:

  1. I can relate to this. After I divorced (although I believed I had "Biblical grounds") I felt guilt for years. Felt a bit akin to the woman in the book The Scarlet Letter; branded, a failure. But over time, as I experienced more and more of God's grace, mercy, peace, and hope, my feelings changed. Plus, the truth of the matter was that my life was just plain better. May this new year bring many blessings to you and your children.

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    1. Dear Tracy, I appreciate your honesty and when it gets down to it, yes I can repeat your sentiment my life is just plain better.
      Thank you
      May you enjoy love,peace and joy in the coming New Year.

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  2. B M it's okay to feel that void about some unhappy things in life. Well that unhappy part is over and life's just got better.
    i wish u peace, happiness and lots of satisfaction.
    Take Care and whenever u feel like talk though ur posts.

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