I have always attached strings to my father’s love. And know that I should not. I do not want to grieve him, and yet I feel I have.
I go about my business and my children’s, there is no story to pour out that has not come out in bits and parts over the past 2 years. It is done for me so I don’t talk about it.
How do I say ‘I don’t want you to worry’ and not get him more worried.
I am reminded, I have made him proud in many ways,
I know he does not fault me in this
and yet
still.
There will always be a part of my brain that remembers my mother's old-fashion thoughts, and that is a problem source. It's there but it doesn't dominate, just rears it's head from time to time.
I had done what I could on my own, I could not lean, I did not want to. That was for me. Eventually I would have to stand on my own.
I held on for as long as it took.
I am relieved and sad.
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I am in the exact position, so I do understand how you feel. What worries them is when they are gone who is going to look after their daughters. Bless you
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