The steps are different each time for everyone.
'Pray always, ask God for guidance and peace'...
Sage advice, yes, I kept up the prayer and I followed the bible passages but I realised 'I am not thinking further or moving '. They gave me comfort and calm and they helped me accomplish that first phase but now I'm not sure to where or what I need, to move forward, the answers are not forthcoming.
Perhaps the answers or the inspiration to move on are not to be found there now but has to come from elsewhere, from myself, or from the kids or from an action or experience.
There is still cause for anxiety, but I'm no longer frozen, it's been a year, I need to work the emotional and the self independence, push on, stop waiting for the unknown.
I'm not saying I've cut off my faith or anything like that, just that faith now has a different role to play.
God still has a place but not as my crutch.
Good for you. Keep going. You're doing great. Perhaps you will enjoy a quote that has meant a lot to me over the years:
ReplyDelete...have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
--Rainer Maria Rilke, 1903
May you find your path for moving forward
ReplyDeleteBeautifully said Judi,it is about patience, thank you.
ReplyDeleteThank you Tracy.
You're last line is wonderful. One that should be printed out and placed somewhere where it can be read each day.
ReplyDeleteOoooo...... hoping only the best for you dear.
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