Contrary to all the Sunday readings, I encountered a God who is fierce and super-strict; not as I've come to know him but one who is intolerant, demanding, almost unforgiving, reactive - this comes through quite scarily in the books of Exodus, Numbers and Deutoronomy.
Suddenly I think, I want God of the old testament to rain down fire on the bully in my life but yet I prefer God of the New Testament to be there for me.
Sometimes I wish I could direct my life the way I want it and direct God in this drama too... [no lightning!.]. did I say that I fantasize a fair bit!
That's the drama of my life.. taking 2 steps forward and 1 step back.
We each walk at different paces, and the Greater one above calls us to grow according to our individual capabilities. Confession is good for the soul, you teach me too, we keep learning.
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I think many of us would like to direct God's decisions and quite often we try. We are all a work in progress...learning and growing each day of our journey.
ReplyDeleteBlessings and prayers,andrea
PS: I have an urgent prayer request on arise 2 write.
I can't stop myself from believing in God nor can I stop myself from drifting away from every religion..
ReplyDeleteLike anything else, it's a process, I believe. Maybe for some it comes in one fell swoop, but I think for most it's a lifetime of growth and learning and accepting.
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Straight From Hel